Being in a relationship just spoils the whole thing. People will talk about it...then eventually, u'll break up. And the whole "let's just be friends" thing is just plain BULLSHIT..it'll be so fcuking awkward to talk as friends and hangout after being in a relationship with someone.
Now, there's no more 'her' and nice things to expect when i need some company.. Why? It's cause people talk and it spreads like cancer and eventually, 'her' parents would began to suspect something fishy and i have to back off.
Argh! Dammit! Why can't i have things going my way for once?! Why? Why does misery always come crawling back to me?
I guess its just that im destined not to have a well-established relationship and i cant be happy. I always have to be emo.. i always have to feel miserable.