Tuesday, March 16, 2010

EMO.Seriously.GoddamnEMO.

It's been quite sometime since i put a thought back into this mess. Then again, i was never a perfect one even to begin with. Relationships are never in my list. It's the one thing that i fail from the very start.

It started when we were kids. You promised me that you'll love me forever. But you left me hanging when i needed you the most. Then other girls try to take your place. But they weren't like how we are. I was drowning into the deepest hollow part of our memories, right where you left them.

Now, with every choices i have to face, with the fact that you made me this way. You took my heart and never gave it back. I grew older without my heart. But it felt somehow as if i was recovering from 'us'. Like i was being cured as time walks right through my life.

Then another seemed to have taken your place. She made me believe that the emotion that we left long ago could be revived. Believed her, i did. Loved her, i have. But knowing the truth was never as sweet as how we thought it could be, she tore that empty shell you left within me. Now, im without a heart. Torn into a trillion pieces.

People can't blame me for being this way now. Who i am now is what i never wanted to be. This smiling hollow shell upon them is just a skin behind the ugly sorrow self of mine. In the wake, i feel just like the rest but when the sun comes down, no one will ever forget.

This who i am now. If you are reading this letter, surely you will understand. I need the heart that you stole from me seven years ago. Give it back.

IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH WHAT I WROTE.. WRITE YOUR OWN POST IN YOUR BLOG AND LEAVE ME ALONE.