Flashbacks,Replays&Memories.

At times, we look upon others as a guidance into our situations. May our situations be different from one another, but it helps when someone else has felt what your feeling now.

• Remember those times where we spent looking at the sunset together? How i used to hold your hand, and tell you how special you were to me. Love.
• Knowing the fact that you got shot down before even saying a word to someone you cared about. Disappointment.
• The effort we made to hold our relationship to this day. How we stayed together for 5 years, been through everything side by side. Trust.
• How that bitch cheated on you behind your back. How the pain feels right through your heart. EMO.
• Knowing you tried everything to make this relationship work, but it hardly seems enough. Given Up.

Yep. Those are the feelings where people can relate directly. How lovely it felt during the times, How painful it was to feel it all before. People relate though the emotions set free by the heart.

So, what do i feel right now? I don't even know what there is to feel. Im caught between too many emotions. The only thing that relates us now is feeling you get when you understand what this post is all about.

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EMO.Seriously.GoddamnEMO.

It's been quite sometime since i put a thought back into this mess. Then again, i was never a perfect one even to begin with. Relationships are never in my list. It's the one thing that i fail from the very start.

It started when we were kids. You promised me that you'll love me forever. But you left me hanging when i needed you the most. Then other girls try to take your place. But they weren't like how we are. I was drowning into the deepest hollow part of our memories, right where you left them.

Now, with every choices i have to face, with the fact that you made me this way. You took my heart and never gave it back. I grew older without my heart. But it felt somehow as if i was recovering from 'us'. Like i was being cured as time walks right through my life.

Then another seemed to have taken your place. She made me believe that the emotion that we left long ago could be revived. Believed her, i did. Loved her, i have. But knowing the truth was never as sweet as how we thought it could be, she tore that empty shell you left within me. Now, im without a heart. Torn into a trillion pieces.

People can't blame me for being this way now. Who i am now is what i never wanted to be. This smiling hollow shell upon them is just a skin behind the ugly sorrow self of mine. In the wake, i feel just like the rest but when the sun comes down, no one will ever forget.

This who i am now. If you are reading this letter, surely you will understand. I need the heart that you stole from me seven years ago. Give it back.

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Poseidon?

As days pass by, my assignments still remain unattended. *sigh*

Well, on the other hand, spent my saturday to go finish off things in Sunway. The join-venture between #1 class (my class) and #2. Our product to promote? Mineral water.

Hahahaha.. i know right, what a awesome thing to promote. So damn cool like no one else has ever tasted it awesome-ness. Im being sarcastic, mind you.

Group name? Poseidon. No, not because of the Lightning Thief movie.. cause it has to do something with water. Judging from that statement already, im sure we're gonna get a headshot by Anderson.

Anyway, Ann-e was super-shit-high like as if she was smoking high quality crack, weyh. Fucker...i was getting pinched all over. (thank god she didnt pinch or touch anything below my waist) or else..wont be celebrating Father's Day anymore. Reason why she's high? Probably cause i farted at her kentucky fried chicken.

Anyways, that all for now. Updates are coming soon.

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SportsDayCrashing.

Crashed at SMKBB's Sports Day today.. haha. Obviously, the current teachers go like "Ex-students aren't allowed to be in our compound" or someshit like that. Well, thank god that my friend's parents illegally brought me in. Heh heh.

Then ofcourse, i went around school to check out what's new and shit. Seems like nothing's changed for the better. It got alot worse with the Ninja Turtle in charge. *sigh* The canteen is like shiite.. the walls are filled with ugly paintings (among the back blocks) and ofcourse; the toilet still smells like . . . fuyoh!

Among the seniors that tagged along with me today were Faiz Jamal, Tanach, Norman, Arep & Wife, Liyana, Nad, Aji and Fahmie. And we criticize the sports houses like how we usually do. There were some familiar faces there, no doubt.

Norman was awarded Mr.Handsome Cullen or something..cheh.. pfft. Shannon said that me and Ku Marsya were like siblings thanks to our noses. (like wtf? haha) then i teased her about it the whole day. On top of that; she says my blog is damn emo. True, definitely. :)

Anyway, the question that was bugging me in my head was: Why can't seniors come to our own sport's day? And the answer was, according to Ms.Ong Be Be- "We actually want the seniors to come in, but during this recent years, we have problematic ex-students. The ones that enter the premises with their rempit bikes, piercings, street gangs, etc. So, obviously the principal disagrees with the whole 'Letting the seniors in' idea. We want to avoid any possible problems in advance."

Well said. Now we know why we're being hated and hunted in our former secondary school.

So seniors of SMKBB, the next time you aren't allowed to enter into your own former school and your pissed as hell and ask why? That is the reason. Good night, people.

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TOA.DramaMama.

This week is Exploration Week..guess it'll be somewhat awesome (according to the seniors)...NOT. Yeah, it looks like im stuck with a pile of assignments for this weekend, again.

Ann-e and JL are now under my match-making plans..Heh Heh. :) Seems that things are going well, there's someone else to get scratched by her and shit. And yes, not looking at the obvious fact: They look like a sweet couple*. (*im purposely saying this because i was paid to say so)

Inez, Cheryl Teh and Mr.E are some of the ones who have been infected with the "RaJa Virus". And apparently, today was DRAMA day. Eventhough i thought after highschool there's less drama in my life..well, thank god this issue isnt related to my life. Why?

Jake (aka. the monitor) was damn freaking emo about how the people in class are treating him. Well, cant say anything about it...after all, im still new here. But still though, he's a good worker. Leading another campaign against Jake for the class president is L***. (its not censored, its just i dunno how to spell her name) And from Malaysian Studies till Figure Drawing..the drama goes on and on and on.. *sigh*

So, then expect more drama within these past few days.. cause why? It's the motherfucking RaJa Show in TOA!

Haha..yeah. For the readers from TOA, especially my class- You'll know exactly what the fuck im talking about. Well, if you dont. Then...uhh...We'll see some drama is class. Hopefully.

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RandomShowdown.

Things just never go the way you want them to be. Never.

Random people suddenly appearing in my msn, Random messages in my phone.. Hell, what the fuck is going on?

Yesterday, i stayed over in the lab with Emmanuel, Ann-e, Cheryl L. Best part of doing your assignments in a silent lab with shut-up-lights along the hall is: You get to do whatever you want, and nobody will even notice anything.

When back to the ol' NRA roots- Emmanuel and myself made an awesome talkshow about random shits around us. Some were made up, mind you.

Ann-e tried to kick me, again. But still, i was too cun-ted to begin with. Therefor, i had the upper-hand on her random pokes and scratches. (the cause of her attacks still remain mysterious)

Guess things can work out. New friends in college reminds me of the ol' days in SMKBB.. full of crazy, random, awesome-ness. Haha.

Getting cramped in my car by Friday; thanks to Anderson's class. Teaming up with Badrissa, Inez, Cheryl twins, Ann-e, Mr.E, The "I hate you" guy and Myself. Research on Incognito, begins. Another showdown between Ann-e and me? We'll see.

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OffTheRecord.

I seriously have anger issues. Infact, the whole scenario of yesterday's post was already going through the roof.

Im glad that i cursed alot on my blog. What's even better is, i could get it off my chest instead of accidentally taking it on someone who is totally innocent. Off the record- Truth is, I really miss the old times.

Exact date? Before 5th of July, 2009. It was a whole lot better back then. Choki's was still around, Me, Mike, Navin and most of us were hanging out most of the time. Shisha with buddies at 8.

-I just miss those times where my friendship was so intact, so close.

Now? Things are just terrible with me and friends from Bangsar. It's gotten alot worse after January, 2010. Somehow it's just gotten so bad that i run away from it. I stopped going to Bangsar unless if i was with my family.

I just can't be in Bangsar anymore. No majority friends here, anymore. But thankfully there are a few of my Bangsar friends who are still my friends. Now, i'd just want to move on. Get out of everyone's way.

Hopefully i'll leave Bangsar soon, for there is nothing for me here. Adios.

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AngerIssues.

Motherfuckers. Yeah, that's what they are.

Think i give a damn about your gathering, asshole? Well, go fuck yourself. Take everyone of those fakers who actually calls themselves my so called friends.

I hope you rot in hell, you stupid motherfucking son of a bitch. I really wish that Satan drags your balls into hell..

Think that your so damn big just because you have your entourage of losers around? Hah! Your just as pathetic as everyone of them. Yes, just like every single of them.

Motherfuckers, hope you'll have fun so badly that when you laugh, you'll choke and die. Yes, that's right.

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WeeklyUpdates.

What's happening nowdays? Well, ain't much.

College: Lepak with the 'latecomers' group. They seems to be much nicer than the seniors. Fucking assholes. Dumped with a billion tons of ideas for each assignments. But execution? hehe.. im always the last-minute guy.

Annie is always annoying with her random-ness, while everyone else just joins into our conversation whenever the class starts. Some people even said that she's my girlfriend.. haha. How stupid. No way in hell would i be with all that crazy random shit.

Mr.Anderson's class is always freaking hilarious.. once; he even commented on the 2nd class: "People have Blackberry, you want Blackberry. Nokia 3310's full functions oso you dunno. Monkey see, Monkey do." Then all of us laughed like hell. He's like a little fat boy in a candy store whenever we get into the Lourve Gallery topic, in France.

"Art is for the people who have taste, Taste is for the people who have education, Education is for the people who wants to be better than everyone else." Quoted from Mr.Anderson, himself.

Thanks to Annie, i got dragged into watching Toothfairy at Sunway Piramid. *sigh* dumb ass.

Played snooker soon after that, got trashed for the first game. Then trashed others next. So much for me "not knowing how to play snooker", eh? haha.

Everything else seems to be better. PLKN and college life reminds me so much of highschool. Somehow it's like they're exactly alike.

Well, that's all for now. Bye.

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TOA. NewWeek.

Its only a week since everything started off fresh in my life. Couldn't complain that much, after all the pro's and con's are about the same.

New college lunch buds; Cheryl, Cheryll, Annie, Emmanuel, Jake & Me. The only guy malay in the whole class after all is me, alone.

The Cheryl twins are like followers, they just follow the flow. Annie? Well, she's something like me..but as a girl. Much more annoying too. Emmanuel just the typical silent treatment person. But helpful too when you need it. Jake? He's the most annoying, awkward, joke-gone-wrong person i've ever met. Haha.

So far, the most fucked up thing everyday in college is the stupid motherfucking parking! Seriously, i hate that part.

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