ToThatCoward.

To whoever it is on my cbox..

It's fucking obvious u like my girlfriend. It's fucking obvious that you're a coward..using an alias and telling me to break with my girlfriend?

If i find out who the fuck you are....i will make sure that i'll break your face.

And to anyone else who has a fucking problem with my relationship; just shut up and live with it. Got a problem with this post? Well boo-hoo, too bad. Its my blog. Its my fucking business.

TotalBoredom.

So, today.. is gonna be a very boring day.

I'm just gonna go to school, pick up my girlfriend and send her home..then go somewhere to lepak, then go to Abg Man's... then shisha shisha shisha...then go home and sleep.

*I've repeat this action sequence for the last 3weeks*

Then blog about something that i possibly could have thought about then wait for comments then watch tv..then do Myspace..then call my friends...then go out again.

THAT'S ALL FOR TODAY, FOLKS! YES, I'M REALLY LIFELESS AT THE MOMENT..SO, READ UP AND POST UP WHATEVER YOU WANT IN YOUR BLOG AFTER YOU READ MINE.

ThankYou,Haters.

Wow..thank you. I've finally realized what a hypocrite and egoistical person i really am.

I've been thinking and its 100% true what Navin said about me.

Navin said:

"Raja - You know, it would be just a bit nice if your good friend had some honestly. I mean hello does it hurt to call and say "dude, I'm hanging out with my girlfriend and I can't come. Sorry"

"He's egoistic and very hypocritical"

Hence the words of someone regarding Raja


It's not the first time he's done this. And well alot of us have realised that his attitude has changed. He's more egoistic. Don't know la what is his problem. Apparently he's upset with me also. Well people, you my attitude. If a friend ain't talking to me I just leave it."

Well, he is right..i am egoistic and very hypocritical. And not just that; i am a liar, backstabber, two-faced person and etc.

I totally understand about what most of you haters feel about me..and yes, i want to thank you. I would like to thank all of you people who hates my existence and would like for me to just disappear..

Actually, i would like the same thing to happen to me too..believe it or not. To everyone whom i have ruined their 'perfect days', i'm sorry.

To anyone whom i have made them hated their friends; i'm sorry.
To Navin; i'm sorry for having a demanding relationship..i'm sorry for being an egoistic bastard..i'm sorry for not apologizing in a proper way..i'm sorry for being a hypocrite..and i'm sorry for existing in your daily life.

To everyone who felt offended by reading my blog; i'm sorry..

Bottomline is:

I'M SORRY FOR EVEN BREATHING EVERYONE ELSE'S OXYGEN RIGHT NOW..I'M SORRY FOR EVEN BEING BORN INTO THIS WORLD; I DONT FIT ANYWHERE. I SHOULD JUST DIE LIKE A RAT ON A HIGHWAY. I'M SORRY. I HOPE YOU PEOPLE WOULD LAUGH WHILE READING THIS AND BE HAPPY WITH WHAT I WROTE, BECAUSE I WOULD.

ReadThis, Bro.

Mutual understanding between friends are very complicated nowdays..not suprising rite?

This 'thing' i have between Navin and me right now is not a new thing; it happened to Mike like dozens of time while we're still schooling. And yeah, we dun talk about a week or so...then we'll talk again.

Mike knows i am an asshole. He figured it out when we we're form3.. but he told me what to do with it, and overtime we became better friends. Eventhough i seem to be an asshole between friends, we still hold on to each other's backs when it comes to relationship issues..another 'asshole friend' issues. Things like that.

So, with the current case with Navin- All i could do is just sit and wait. I already apologized. So, what else is there to do? If he does mean what he said about me a few months earlier..which was i was a friend that had his back, then this could be a simple misunderstanding.

A few days ago, while i bumped into him at Devi's.. i went to him and apologized; but then he keep on saying "fuck off!" to me. So, what is there to say? The only thing i could say is..screw-ups are made because:

Because people make mistakes. I MAKE MISTAKES. So, at this situation; its really up to Navin to decide.
Thank you, i've said my piece.

NewPublicEnemy: Me.

What's there to say? I'm a Public Enemy.

For the year '09- It started with Zakwan, Ashraf then Navin.. isn't it just fabulous?

As if i need anymore shit like this.. i'm a human, and yes.. i try to learn from my fucking mistakes but yeah- There's not gonna be a perfect 10 of ranking for being a better person.
Eventually, most of my friends are gonna hate me also..

For those who doesn't care about other people's problem; You should remember that you're not the only one who lives on this planet. Eventhough you only care for yourself and those who you think is fit to be thought about... but there will be a time where you will question yourself for what you are.

For those who aren't in relationships; Think that your friend wants to spend time with his special one also and especially since its Valentine's. And i bet that you dont hang out with the same buddy all the time also right? They'll be times where you'd forget on one friend just to hang out with another friend.. Like how u'd feel more comfortable with someone who you think you can relate better than the other.

For those who cant stand me anymore; You dont like me for being me, then find others la.. Find someone who you see fit to be in your perfect little world.. because i sure as hell i dont fit anywhere. Am i wrong to be loved? Is it so hard for a guy like me to be somewhere which he wouldn't be condamned like a fucking bastard?

Think about what i said..if you find it stupid; forget about it. If you find it to be true; live with it.

IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH WHAT I WROTE.. WRITE YOUR OWN POST IN YOUR BLOG AND LEAVE ME ALONE.

ThisWeek'sRoundUp.

So, these are things which have happened this end of Jan to beginning of Feb..

Had more Shisha than usual, more free food, more eye-candy, more funny stupid things.. :)

Went to Lepaq the other day, and they had some event- A perfomance from 2bands named Coda and Funky Doryz. It was cool..i only like the song named Sudahlah something by Coda and Funky Doryz were a real cool funk band. They actually made the crowd sing along to them and they rocked the stage.


Then about 2days before Lepaq; i followed Navin to Sunburst Launch Party..which was held at Pavillion. I saw Estranged, One Buck Short and Bunkface.. it was awesome. But Navin got the picture with the Bunkface frontman instead of me..(well, Navin has a social ability).


We couldn't get in; it was either for guests or media. We're neither. So, we had to watch to thing from outside.. then keep on annoying the guards by asking them what time can we go in? So, in the end- They let the public know that they'll only let us in by 9.30pm and it was at the other entrance..so we had to walk. Then, after god-knows-how-long...they finally let us in..


This is a picture of a Alien Spaceship in Bangsar..i took it while i was lepaking at McDonald's. lol. Talk about boredom....so, go figure.

Well, that's all for now.. i'll keep you guys informed with more stupid and random things soon. Adios, Amigos. :)

RE:I'mNowAHater.

Thanks for reading my blog, you jackass!

Here are the reasons why i didnt confronted you:

• Ashraf says: i dont care wht u said to me but u r one hell good actor. *clap* nice job. dude at least confront me, tell me face to face. i'm an open minded so pls..

• you're open minded, so please? What the hell is that about? Everytime i wanted to talk to you, you'll end up running away or looking away like a faggot. Remembered the last time that i saw on an escalator at BV?! How you turn'd away like a big faggot..so there you go.
  

• Ashraf says: anytime you wanna talk sms me or watever, we'll have some talk like we usually did and i'll try to improve myself as one of the biggest mother ****er..show me that u are a real man..
  

• Call or text you and talk like last time? When was the last time i had a 'talk' with you instead of a "hye, bye." because you'll be acting like a bitch to me..so tolong la kawan; think before you talk, and yes, please improve on being a motherfucker..thank you. Owh yeah, show you that i'm a real man eh? How is that? By making you cry..again.
• Owh yeah, one more thing.. remember the prefect picnic that we had last year? Remember how you cried and be emo after all of the guys carried you because you ran like a bitch just because you couldn't stand the smell of the durian? Yeah, some man you are.
  

So, read up..Ashraf. This is why i couldn't talk to you; its because you're always acting like a bitch to everyone and then cry...then everyone will show their sympathy to you. Isn't that your style? Thank you.

Sunburst'09 Dilemma.

Here's a stupid dilemma! When i joined Navin's party to Sunburst Launch...it didnt occur to me that my dad actually knows the management, that me and Navin could have been into the Guest List or VIP table..pfft.

How'd i know about this?
I was lepaking at Abg Man a few days ago and i told my dad about the waiting in line to enter into the launch event, then found out that they already said who's coming before the area was opened to the public.. and that was a huge letdown.

So, my dad asked me who were the organisers or management people- It was some group by the name of pinapple.. and guess what? My dad actually has some contacts within/working with the entertainment group. *sigh* What a fucking bummer!! I could have taken some pictures with bands like Estranged, One Buck Short and others if i was at the VIP table.....cheh! *frust*

So the moral of the story is:
For the next Sunburst or it's launch party, i'm gonna ask my dad for some VIP treatment...haha. I'll get it next time, NEXT TIME!

IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH WHAT I WROTE.. WRITE YOUR OWN POST IN YOUR BLOG AND LEAVE ME ALONE.

ParasitesToTheSociety.

Whats wrong with the people nowdays? I've seen more beggars, con-artists, parasites than the kinder side of people..

Its like really annoying when you wanna eat and these beggars come up to you one after another asking for your pity by making their sad faces which they have done to a million other people before you. And yet, we all still fall for it.

I dont mind giving small change to the less-fortunate, but if its the same faces all the time.. i'll get pissed off. Why cant these people find a decent job? Its not like they are handicap like blind or something..they are all normal people but they act like PARASITES to our society!

When i'm eating, i couldn't help but to hear some guy by the next table promising a business worth billion..gazillion to another con-artist victim. Firstly, my family had this experience before...so i really could tell if they are con-artist; by judging from the way they talk, dress, walk and present their multi-million bluff projects.

Let's think rasionally, if your a successful businessman...would you wear a tear'd up t-shirt, spit everywhere while you smoke and then present your "project"? One thing i've learned about meeting with business entrepreneurs, the first impression is always the key to a good business deal..and yet, our people would still fall for it.

I dont know whats wrong with our society and why are these wolves are still 'lingering' around...to me, they are just like cancer to our youth generations....the youths who are trying to have a good life, not the crazy motorcylists.

Breakdown.

Its interesting to think what a girl could do when you put all the trust and love into a relationship with her. I've just read her blog and found out that my girlfriend writes out a post that says she gave her phone number to a 'hot' guy and she said that she'll 'wouldnt' cheat on anyone, right?

What does the "right?" suppose to mean? Is she being sarcastic? I'm having mixed emotions about my relationship now.. i dont know how to trust in her anymore, by that statement in her blog.

And to add my 'emotional wound'; i'm not close to Navin anymore..not as buddies. Its like everyone's changed overnight and i'm left without a choice but to accept the naked truth. Its because i didn't go to a job interview with him eventhough i applied with him. Maybe it'd occur to him that i couldn't be trusted after a series of simutanious occasions that seemed just like what's happening now.

I'm having alot of unnessecary stress within me; and it shows. I'm out every night trying to chill out by hanging out at places like Lepaq, Abg Man, Hartamas Square and D'Haven..just trying to chill out. Trying to forget about all these problems in my head.. and it never goes away eventhough i try so hard trying to forget about it. I dont know what to do anymore..i am having a phycological breakdown.

IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH WHAT I WROTE.. WRITE YOUR OWN POST IN YOUR BLOG AND LEAVE ME ALONE, because i'm already emotionally broken.